Week log 1

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Well, I made a lot of plans for last week. It’s part of my plan to become a “super power” in one year. Well, let’s see the progress so far:

Guitar – I started learning from scratch and I must say I learned a lot. I changed my learning method. I’m learning theory first, instead of songs. I will keep studying theory and once I finish it, I will start learning how to play some songs. I will buy another guitar as soon as I have money because mine doesn’t seem to be working very well. :(
Diet – My belly is visible smaller. My forearms veins are also more visible. I think I must have lost about 2KG this week. I think more 10~15 days will be enough for me to have a 8% body fat. 
Whey Protein – Got 1KG of whey and 1KG of maltodextrin.
Sue my ex broadband provider – Unfortunately I couldn’t  to do it yet. I was going to do it on Thursday, but I went to the wrong place. I was told to call a number from the local court in order to get more information about it. I will do it this week.
Bonus hint – I started reading How to Make Friends and Influence People. Knowing how to deal with people is a key for success IMHO.
I also want to get back to learning russian this week, but it will probably happen only on the next one.
It’s 6 in the morning here. Now it’s time for me to get dressed and go to the grocery store to buy some food.

This week

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Well, after a lot of work I finally finished Metropolis. Now that it’s released I can start focusing on other stuff. Believe or not, I started working on it on December 2011. I was working on it on my free time, so I didn’t have much time to work on it. Well, now it’s released. I hope for god I will get some nice money from it. Even if I don’t get, Metropolis is too fucking cool. So far I’m proud of it.

Well, I’ve got a plan for this year. The goal is to do everything I was supposed to have done years ago. I’m not sure if it’s a good idea to write here who’s my inspiration for the plan. Well, anyway, I’m going to become a slave. And I finally solved my motivation and focus problems.
This week I will start a weight loss program. I simply stop drinking too much soft drinks. I love them, but they won’t let me lose weight easily. I will drink no more than 2 cans a day. I know I should drink no soda at all, but if I try anything that’s too complicated I will end up giving up. Last year I ran a 13 day Albuterol cycle. I was able to lose 2KG without losing muscle mass. And I wasn’t even on a diet. Now the goal is to lose 5~6KG. Yeah, I want to become very lean. 8% body fat or less is fine. Last time I toke 12MG a day, this time I want to start from 4MG every four hours and go 8MG every 4 hours. Considering I will be on a diet and that I’m now on TRT, there’s a big change I will be able to lose all the weight I want in just 2 weeks.
This week I will also get serious on learning how to play the guitar. If I study it for 30 minutes everything, I will play it decently in a few weeks. I will start from scratch, learning chords and sound effects. Well, it won’t be easy, but I have to learn it. It would help me a lot. I mean, those who can play an instrument always get attention. It’s easier even to make friends.
This week I will also sue my former broadband provider. They simply cut my signal and when I tried calling them, the phone would just stay mute. The store I subscribed the service from said they wouldn’t help me. WTF!? I’m not even able to cancel it. And worst of all, I needed to finish Metropolis quickly because it will be sold on MacUpdate Promo on monday. I got another broadband provider and now it’s working fine(let’s hope it will work for long). 
I also have to buy more whey protein. 
Well, this week won’t be easy, but I will have to start getting on a routine if I want to succeed.
BTW, I’m writing this post from Metropolis and I must say it’s WAY better than the WordPress admin. Seriously, I have no idea why I never tried using a blogging app before. It’s very good to write a post on it. And I really really hope Metropolis will be successful. Yeah, I’m paranoid. :P

19 years old

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In case someone wants to know, today I’m turning 19 years old.

It’s been 2 years

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Wow, it’s been 2 years since I moved from Rio de Janeiro to São Paolo. I moved to here on 21/02/2011. Today I was looking at the calendar and I noticed February 21 was 3 days ago. In those 2 years, I learned a lot, changed a lot and so did my life. Somethings didn’t change at all, and probably never will…

This year was shit

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This year was an literally piece of crap. Last year I made a lot of plans. And guess how many them I actually did? One plan and two halfs. I did register my company, I did learn the basics of playing the guitar and I did get a little big. Note that the last two things were not done completely. Most of my plans for 2013 are still the same. The difference is that now there are fallbacks(i.e. in case I don’t get big enough, I will run a steroid cycle). I also have deadlines to the plans. Most of them must be finished until march. I know it will be hard, but I will have to do it if I want my life to get better. I really really will have to, no matter what. Also, I started testosterone replacement therapy(my T levels were similar to the ones from a 45 YO guy), which is making me a lot more motivated. I’m also no longer depressed because of it. Things will be much easier now. So, 2013 must be the year of the DOs. I have to act and make stuff happen. I know it won’t be easy, but what was easy in my life? NOTHING! Get a Mac? Toke me some months. Get rid of school? Toke me years. Learn how to code? Toke me a lot of time to become good at it. Move away from my parents’ home? I lost the count of how many times I almost got back! My plans won’t be any harder than most things I did. And well, I was able to do them so I will be able to make things happen.  I just have to believe. Most people can’t do certain stuff because they don’t believe in themselves. A lot of people say it’s impossible for your arm to grow 10CM in a year. Mine grew this in less than 6 months. Nobody believed it would happen. And I didn’t even take ‘roids. I only started taking them less than 2 months ago because of my low T(and it didn’t make a lot of difference because I’m taking just what I need). Also, not even my parents believed I’d be able to move away from their home so quickly. People keep creating barriers and that’s why they do nothing. I confess I do create some barriers too. And I hope I won’t do this for too long. BTW, this year I also lost my grandaunt, great grandmother and my grandmother’s mother in law(which I considered my great grandmother). Well folks, I wish you a happy new year and I hope everything will work out for me and for you guys!

This song makes me remember my childhood

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Here’s why I’m still broke

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Well, I’m not broke like I have no money to eat and my stuff is being sold by a court, but I’m not rich yet. In fact, I was born broke. For years my goal was to be rich. Right now for example, I wanna save a million dollars. It might sound weird, but that’s enough for me to set up a company in the US and support it for some time until it becomes profitable.

So, I found a possible answer for the question about why I’m not rich yet. I had nothing to do and for some dumb reason, I Google for “How to make a million dollars”. I came across an article at HowStuffWorks. Well, usually this kind of article are totally useless. To me, it might have been useful.

So, it basically states there are 2 ways to become a millionaire.  The easy one is to born to a rich family. Well, that almost happened to me. My great grandfather was a millionaire in a time a million was worth a lot more than it’s today. Imagine a million dollars in the 60s. He was able to make this amount of money in some months. Sadly, he had alzheimer’s disease and everyone let my uncle take care of everything. Well, my uncle was not only a leftist(not a leftist leader, but someone who believes in a part of the Marxist ideology, a clear sign he needed a brain transplant), but he also was a very lazy guy. He kept saying “My dad made all this money, so he has the right to lose it”. What an idiot, asshole, son of a bitch(I hope none of my relatives will read this)… My grandmother, great grandmother and aunt weren’t innocent too. My poor great grandfather died in misery. I feel sorry for him. The irony of this is that my great grandmother and my aunt died very poor too, with a debt that’s greater than the United States’ national debt. To complete that, no one admits they are broke. They keep acting like they were rich and try to convince everyone about that. Well, if I was rich I’d try not to let people know about it(excepting for the girls I want to fuck). I don’t like bloodsuckers.

The harder way the article cited was to start a business. Well, I already have a business. I even pay my bills from it. The article also stated that working for other people is a waste of time for those who want to become a millionaire. Simply because by doing this, you’re making OTHER PEOPLE rich, not yourself. Currently, my income comes from developing custom solutions to other companies. Mainly for advertising agencies. It made me see that I’m making other people rich, not me. My goal was never to do this. I’m doing this now because that’s what pays my bills. My goal was always to create products for the final consumer and sell those products directly(or by using a middle man, AKA retailers) to them.

Unfortunately, my projects that are focused on the end user that are under development are a little stuck. I hate suffering of depression. This makes me very tired and doesn’t let me work the way I’m supposed to. Considering I’m tired of working, it gets a lot worse. Also, it makes me addicted to sugar, which might make me develop type 2 diabetes. While anti-depressants help a LOT, they ain’t magical drugs. I’m even considering trying low doses of testosterone to make me feel better.

Getting back to what I was talking about, I got 2 projects which are under development. One is a web based service which shouldn’t give me much profit. It’s almost finished. The second project is a Mac app which isn’t that close to be finished yet. Weirdly, I started this project in December last year. The Mac app will have some integration with the web project, that’s why I’m prioritizing the web one. The Mac app has a great chance of becoming profitable.

Well, these are my thoughts on this subject. I will try to focus more on end user projects. I won’t abandon the custom solutions stuff yet simply because I still need the money from it to survive. If you want to read the article from HowStuffWorks, just click here.

My first white hair

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Holy shit! I’m only 18 years old and I already got my first white hair. If I keep getting more and more of them I guess I will just have to apply some tincture to my entire hair. My hair is dark blonde. If I end up having to paint it, I’m thinking about using a lighter tone of blonde. I hate my genetic. The only thing I like about it is the fact that my arm can grow 1CM in a week if I train, eat and rest right. Excepting for that, my genetic sucks. 

Melatonin

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My melatonin arrived yesterday. I toke one pill and, wow, I slept like crazy. After one week, finally I had a good night’s sleep. :)

BTW, the Melatonin I bought is from Optimum Nutrition. It’s a great brand.

Sleeping problems

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Last week I started having a serious sleeping problem. I just can’t sleep decently. I sleep for 3 to 4 hours a night and wake up all the time. Sleeping was always difficult to me, but now it’s even worse than it was when I started taking antidepressants. Strong medications like Valium and Rivotril make me sleep for like 14 hours a day. I cannot sleep that much as I got a lot of other stuff to do in my life other than sleeping. Not to mention that they got some weird side effects. I wanna take melatonin, as it’s a great hormone to sleep. Too bad that due to lobby from the pharmaceutical industry, it’s forbidden in Brazil. Anyway, forbidden or not, there are always people selling it illegally. Bought a bottle of it over the internet yesterday and it should arrive today or on Monday. I really hope it works and that the one I bought isn’t fake. The good thing is that almost no one makes fake melatonin here. Oh, and I almost forgot to mention that buying those strong medications will help those assholes from the pharmaceutical industry. Every day I start hating more and more the Brazilian government, ANVISA(Brazil’s FDA), the pharmaceutical industry and the doctors council. None of them cares about people, but about their asses.

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